Paranoia is a bitch
I don’t usually suggest hanging out with him, he usually brings it up. But today I suggested it and even though he said yes I can’t help but think he doesn’t really want to :/
Not getting too attached is proving difficult. I got back to Cornwall on Tuesday and have seen him every day since, and stayed at his every night. I’m getting really scared its just going to fuck up or simply not work out and I’ll just be left feeling like an idiot again. Only because it never works out for me and its hard to believe that this time could be different :(
Dismiss lovers who treat you like you’re typical and ordinary, like a good thing such as yourself can happen twice, that make you chase for their affection rather than willing give you their time of day.
My top reason for not being interested in someone is “they’re too nice”
